Goes To 2011

Today is the last day of this year. December, 31st 2010. Tonight, all of the people will celebrate New Year Eve in all over the world. Euphoria in everywhere! We will play trumpet, fireworks, scream loudly and happily, send message as a Happy New Year Greetings, wow! And i guess that it will be a super day when we can let something bad go away and disappear. so, welcome to this new life in a new year! moreover, it can be a simbol or sign of a better year, better life, and a better future.

Talk about 2010, there're too many reasons to live in and keep safely the memories that we got. yes, 2010 is the most controversial year according to me. i found some experiences that i couldn't share it completely right now. it was so sad, happy, awesome, wonderful, mad, everything! these feelings accompanied me everytime. because sometimes, some people ruined my mood and push me till i couldn't control my mind. and vice versa, the other people took me to the top when i was down.

it was so memorable. i tried to survive from the people who wanted to break me down. i tried to learn from my mistakes, even i didn't want to promised that i wouldn't do that again. i tried to be patient to face all the things in front of my eyes. somewhow, this life was getting harder and harder.

but i always believed in the deepest heart, God had His own way for us. and for everything's happened, there're always a purpose. God didn't always give us an easy way to do because it's not enough for keep struggling and face the future in easy life. but i really would to thank to God and all the people around me. without them, i'm nothing.

well, flashback in 2010. what happened in my life?

* i had boyfriend. i heart them so much.

* 2nd rank on the first semester and 3rd rank from social class (year 11). it was  so amazing!

* i had the best sweet 17th birthday bash at Istana Nelayan. full of surprises!

* mom and dad bought a camera SLR for me.

* became a leader of ceremony on Kartini's Day.

* joined student council and had so much fun with my pals. we made some great events and  it was a new precious experiences. 

* grade 11 was the best year for me. 11 social 1 is in my heart. i had many super friends as my classmates. last good job that we did was we won all the games in classmeeting. sounds great, right? 

* it was the first time i joined the cup from sanur, saint john, and of course my school, tarakanita. in sanur, i joined the volley competition. in saint john, i joined the photography competition and the photo that i took went to top 10. so happy even i was not a winner. in tarakanita, i designed a poster with photoshop.

it's just a little bit, guys. there're too much memories inside my mind. especially for the things that i hadn't to remember. because it was full of pain, sadness, sacrifice, anything! that was the worst part in my life. but i couldn't ignore that the happiness in this year already gave me something new. and i wish 2011 will be easier than before. there's no big problem. there's no big natural disaster in this world, especially for Indonesia. and i really hope all of our dreams come true. of course we have to struggle and struggle. don't ever give up to reach what you want. and the first point is, don't forget to pray and say thanks to the Lord for everything. last but not least, everything's gonna be alright at that time. keep smile :D

kiss, BEIB :)

Break The Legs and Win The Match, Indonesia!

Tonight will be the most spectacular day for all us, Indonesian people. We will watch the football match on AFF 2010 Champion (leg 2), Indonesia versus Malaysia at Gelora Bung Karno, Senayan. You can watch the match on RCTI also at 18:30.

Yes, maybe we felt so disappointed many days ago because Malaysia defeated Indonesia 3-0. And I felp so angry about the laser. It was very-very annoying, right? How could they do that? But we may not feel sad anymore, because we believe in our heart that Indonesia will win the match tonight, right? And all the people will put their hands up and laugh everywhere. Full of happiness :D

Just shout it loudly : Garuda di dadaku. Garuda kebanggaanku. Kuyakin, hari ini pasti menang. Kobarkan semangatmu. Tunjukkan sportivitasmu. Kuyakin, hari ini pasti menang. Come on, don't ever stop to do it, guys! Always give support for Indonesia team.

And the first point is don't forget to pray to the Lord. Please bless them so they can do the best for country and of course for theirselves. There're still 90 minutes and everything's so unpredictable. Keep spirit and just forget about yesterday at Stadion Bukit Jalil, Malaysia. We're not a loser, right? We will never give up and we will always struggle to reach the top.

Moreover, I agree with one of tweet from Irfan Bachdim, "WINNERS NEVER QUIT." 90 minutes at GBK. It will be a precious time if they can play a good game. 4-0 for Indonesia. We are sanguine of success. Let's break the legs of Malaysian and be a real winner. Oh Lord, please bless and guide them, so they can show their best. Give them spirit and your Holy Spirit so they can play a fair game with powerful to defeat Malaysia. Hope there's no sarcasm, no vandalism, no violence at all in there. In the name of Jesus we pray. AMEN!

I'm addicted to this man. Christian Gonzales aw awww :D Just call him,"El Loco!" In Bahasa, it means "sangat gila." Ya, i think that he is so awesome as a football player. There's nothing to say to him, love yaaaaa Christian Gonzales :D

Firman Utina is a captain of National Team. He is full of spirit. He is never give up. I'm proud of him as a good captain to bring his team be the best.

Irfan Bachdim uwooooo :D Many people says that he is so cool hand handsome. Ya, i can not ignore it.

Markus Horison is so cool. He is an Indonesia goal keeper. He always try and workhard for keeping the goal. I don't know why I really want to do interview with him. I want to know what his feeling as goal keeper.

These are my men who always struggling to be a real champion. we love you Timnas :D

salam merah putih! love, beib ♥

Especially For Mom ♥

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If we talk about mother, maybe I will be the most sensitive person in this world. Why? All the things about mother can make these tears run down my face. Moreover, I really-really realized that I always hurt her feelings. It was not only because of my attitude; maybe it is about different opinion, misunderstanding, or something like that. She is always angry and tries to remind me about my bad. And, we know that violence isn’t our way to solve the problem, right?

Actually, she really loves her family and me. She is so lovable. My mom is the most confidence mother in this world hahaha. It is true. She’s very closely related and she has many friends. I think she is a famous person. Oh Loooorrrd hahaha :D

Beside that, she cares of us. What a lovely person! She loves to prepare us some delicious food or meal to eat. And you know what’s my opinion about her food? Mmm... Good job. I likkeeeee it :D Really. And it makes me have an unpleasant feelings if I can not respect and appreciate her.

Mmm... You know, when I was getting down, she would support me and take me higher. And when she gave her sweet smile, free was in my head. It seemed like she threw away my sadness to the sea. And when she laughed, she brought some happiness to this home. Oh yes, I like to accompany my mom to go somewhere. I will never feel comfort if I let her go somewhere lonely.

Well, i have a thousand dreams for my mom. Hopefully, In this mother’s day, she will be a better woman for herself and for family. Hope she will loves us more and more, more than anyting, more than yesterday. We’re so sorry for our mistakes. Forgive us if we always hurt your feelings and we make you sad.

Thank you for everything, mom! Thanks for your love, thanks for being care, thanks for your anger to open our eyes. Mom, I promised, I will buy a big house to you one day. Pray for me so I can workhard and colect the money as much as I can. I love youuuu so much momster :D

Your beloved daughter,

Sintia Astarina ♥♥

Pesan Dari Kawan

jangan pernah menyentuh hidup seseorang jika hanya akan menghancurkan perasaannya

jangan pernah menatap matanya jika semua yang kamu lakukan hanyalah bohong

yang paling kejam adalah membiarkannya jatuh cinta sementara kamu tidak mencintainya

suatu hari, seorang yang sedang putus cinta menangis di taman

saat itu, datanglah seorang ahli filsafat. ia bertanya kepadanya, "Mengapa kamu menangis?"

orang itu menjawab, "Aku sangat sedih. Mengapa ia meninggalkan aku?"

lalu ahli filsafat itu tertawa dan berkata, "Kamu bodoh sekali."

lalu orang itu menjawab, "Kamu ini bagaimana? Aku sedang putus cinta dan sangat menyedihkan. Tak apalah jika kamu tak membujukku. Tapi kamu juga menertawaiku."

"Bodoh! Kamu tak perlu sedih. Karena yang seharusnya sedih adalah DIA!" jawab ahli filsafat itu.

"Mengapa dia yang bersedih, kan dia yang memutuskanku?" tanya orang itu.

"Karena kamu hanya kehilangan orang yang TIDAK mencintaimu. Tetapi dia kehilangan orang yang SANGAT mencintainya," jawabnya.

jangan tertarik pada seseorang karena parasnya, sebab keelokan paras dapat menyesatkan

jangan pula tertarik pada kekayaannya, karena kekayaan dapat musnah

tertariklah pada seseorang yang dapat membuatmu tersenyum, karena hanya senyum yang dapat mengubah hari-harimu yang gelap menjadi cerah.

semoga kamu menemukan orang seperti itu :)

Lots of love,

Sintia Astarina ♥♥

You call me a stranger

You say I'm a danger

But all these thoughts are leaving you tonight

I'm broken, abandoned

You are an angel

Making all my dreams come true tonight

Stranger - Secondhand Serenade

Bukan Sekedar Obsesi

well, guys! ga kerasa banget udah 6 bulan gue menyandang status sebagai anak kelas 12. ga mudah loh buat ngejalanin itu semua. gue ngerasain jatuh bangun ga karuan. yaaaa.. mungkin karena salah satu faktor dalam hidup gue selama 5 bulan belakangan ini. tapi itu ga jadi soal lagi buat gue, karena satu hal yang gue tahu adalah gue harus move on :)

hemm di semester 1 ini entah apa aja yang udah gue lakuin buat ngedongkrak nilai-nilai gue yang kurang, maupun pertahanin nilai-nilai yang menurut gue udah cukup dan maksimal. tapi siapa sangka, ternyata target gue selama 6 bulan belakangan ini meleset sedikit dari perkiraan. damn daraaa damn damn =P

gue pikir, segala usaha, niat, dan perjuangan yang udah gue lakuin dengan segala kerja keras ini bisa membuahkan hasil sesuai dengan harapan. gue juga udah doa sampe pantang. tapi nyatanya, Tuhan pengen nunda itu semua. gue menargetkan dapat peringkat 2 di kelas 12 semester 1 ini. dan saat pembacaan reward, ternyata gue ada di posisi ke 3.

kalo ditanya gimana perasaan gue, sih yah terang aja gue sedih dan kecewa banget karena gue ga bisa pertahanin peringkat 2 besar. makanya, muka gue langsung kusut gitu deh pas tau gue ada di peringkat ke-3 yang mana akumulasi dari hasil rapor gue itu beda 12 poin dari yang peringkat 2. tapi yang bikin gue rada seneng adalah momster sama papa yang tetep bangga sama gue! mereka bangga sama gue karena gue masih bisa ngedapetin ranking, apalagi masih terhitung top 3.

well. hidup ini emang ga selamanya harus mulus. hidup ini juga ga selamanya gue harus berada di posisi teratas, sedangkan gue ga pernah ngerasain gimana rasanya ada di posisi bawah. gue jadi inget deh waktu gue kelas 10. target gue untuk mencapai top 5 kesampean di semester 1. dan pas semester 2, gue menargetkan untuk masuk ke dalam top 3. sayangnya gue ga masuk top 3, malahan rank gue jadi turun 1 peringkat dari yang sebelumnya.

trus pas kelas 11 semester 1, target gue adalah nembus top 3. dan ternyata Tuhan emang maha baik. gue dikasih gift yang melebihi target gue. gue bisa nembus jadi peringkat ke-2. menurut gue itu luar biasa banget karena itu bener-bener di luar dugaan banget. trus pas semester 2, geu berharap banget banget banget bisa masuk top 5 juara umum dari seangkatan anak-anak kelas 11. dan ternyata, lagi-lagi Tuhan emang ga tidur, dia ngedengerin setiap untaian doa yang terlintas. gue bisa ngedapetin peringkat ke-3 dari 89 anak. it's awesome :)

owkaaay. setelah gue liat-liat dan setelah gue pahami, ternyata rona kehidupan kita itu ada alurnya. di saat gue ga bisa ngedapetin apa yang gue pengen, pada nantinya Tuhan bakal ngasih apa yang gue butuhkan. dan di saat gue pengen sesuatu lagi, mungkin Tuhan ga akan langsung ngasih apa yang gue mau. Dia mugkin aja bisa menunda apa yang gue mau demi kebaikan gue. Dan mungkin inilah yang gue alamin sekarang ini.

Ini tentu aja bisa jadi patokan gue untuk melangkah menjadi pribadi yang lebih baik lagi, Nggak cuman Tuhan yang pengen gue lebih berusaha lagi. Tapi orang-orang di sekitar gue juga pengen ngeliat gue lebih sukses, lebih tekun, lebih giat, dan tentunya lebih aktif lagi dalam belajar. di kamus  gue ga ada yang namanya nyerah. di semester 2 nanti target gue mesti kesampean. tembus peringkat 2, masuk 5 besar seangkatan anak kelas 12, lulus UN. AMIN :D Obsesi gue mesti tercapai dengan segala hal-hal positif :)

pals, pray for me so i can do the best for all the people arround me, and of course for myself. god bless us :)

love,

 ♥ BEIB

Hell Yeah Student Council :)

The best person in this organisation. OSIS 2009/2010. Thanks for all the supports, any idea, and your power. We built this organisation from zero. We did it together almost in a year. And i guess that it will be the precious moments for us that we could spent our time in any chance. We made some great events and it's verry berry awesome, guys!

William Liong - Liasita Karina - Sintia Astarina (ME), Caecilia Diah, Wisely Tandi, Sherin Estaris, Michelle Champaka, Dea Alexanderfon, Maria Mutiara, Natalis Santika Pambyatsa
Andreas Hans, Dhanni Reiners Wuwungan (LEADER), Imanuel Krisma

This is the picture that we took after MABIS. That's Mrs. Iin in the left side and Mrs. Agustin in the right side. Yup, OSIS and FRIENDS :D
I will miss you all. Spread the power together and be a good leader for yourself and all the people arround us. Keep remember all the thing that we did. Love ya guysssss :)

love,
Sintia Astarina ♥

they came into my life and messed me up.

like a drama queen, they shared their fish story on and off.

it's just for the hell, right?

they were so cheesy.

and i thaught that it was like a movie.

ririculous and irrational.

F A K E !